A Little too Afraid

Love isn’t as easy as it may seem. But people risk the consequences because the feeling of being happy is worth living that moment. Sometimes, loving the wrong person can change ones perspective when it comes to being in love. There’s ALWAYS that one person that affects you in a different way. That’s why it is not wrong to be afraid. In fact, being afraid is normal. We can’t possibly blame ourselves for being too afraid to fall for someone.

It’s not wrong to fall for the wrong person. One can learn a lot from loving the wrong person. Yes, it hurts to know that it’s possible for someone to fall for the wrong person. It’s terrifying to know if that person you are crazy about is the wrong person to fall for. But one will never know until one gives it a shot. It’s not easy to give the wrong person not only your trust, but your life, time and heart. We’ve got a lot to lose from loving the wrong person, but we also got a lot to gain from it. It may hurt so much and it may take a million years to move on, but once it’s over with- we realize the things we gained from falling for the wrong person. A lot of people don’t want to risk going through the pain because one prefer to play on the safe side. There is so much to lose, so much pain, and so many wasted time. But we are all afraid, we DON’T want to fall for the wrong person, we don’t want to go through all the pain of being left alone, we don’t want to shred all the tears to keep us asleep at night, we don’t want to be haunted with all the memories- but I can assure you that all these are worth it. It sounds very terrible but when you allow yourself to accept everything, you’ll learn how to be strong, you’ll learn how to protect yourself from getting hurt.

I don’t mean shut everyone out your life. All I mean to say is give people the benefit of the doubt to prove themselves their worth to you. Trust me, it’s terrifying to start all over again. But to me, it’s so much better to start over again than to be with the wrong person. It’s so much better to start over with someone else than to hold on to something that doesn’t feel right because the longer you hold onto something that isn’t right, the more time you waste.

The search for love is one of the most difficult process in life. But just like any obstacles, we have to allow ourselves to fail and learn from that experience instead of wasting our time looking back- regretting. Instead of calling it a mistake, learn from it and try to move on, because I am 100% sure that it’s all worth it.

Looking for Perfection

To me, all the words written on a dictionary will never be enough to describe how much one love a person. What irritates me is when people say; “Why do you love him/her?” Like if you ask me, love is something undefined. You can’t just look for it the meaning of how you feel about someone. Yes, love can be defined in a dictionary. But the feeling of love; to me, can never be defined nor nearly impossible to describe. It’s like describing a color to a blind person.

Although, sometimes it takes time for us to figure out who “the one” is. Most of the time, we gotta go through some heart breaks, sometimes we gotta fight for the wrong person, love the wrong person, be crazy about the wrong person before we find that one person that is really worth it. Knowing that person is the one could be difficult. But sometimes, we gotta accept the fact that we can be in love more than once in our lifetime till we find the one.

It may not be easy to determine that person, but we gotta give some time and give that person a chance to prove their worth.

Being in love, loving that person and loving the idea of that person is three different things. And feeling all three to one person is honestly the best feeling a person could ever feel. One doesn’t have to keep saying “I love you” to actually love someone. One can tell someone a very simple word or phrase that shows love to that person.

Someone once reminded me “babe, just because I don’t say it back doesn’t mean I don’t love you” an entire sentence changed my entire perspective when it comes to being in love and loving that person. Why? Because, after that sentence, I start noticing every little things he’s been doing FOR me, all the little things that shows how much he loves me. I don’t need him to say it because he acts upon it. “Actions speaks louder than words” they say.

It might take quite some time to find THE ONE, but once you do, I know it’ll be worth every second of the day. No need to rush.

A little too perfect

Sometimes, when one is in a relationship where one has gone through hell and back, it’s almost hard to believe the perfect moments both shared. Some are afraid to jump into conclusions because once things fall apart it’s where it hurts the most. We can try to ignore how much it hurts, but the more we ignore it the more it’ll hurt and the more it’ll “eat us”.

But LOVE… I am a sucker for happy ever after. I ignore what hurts and indulge the things that makes me happy. Being in love with the person I am in love right now is the most amazing thing ever. He does so much for me, he supports me in everything I do and to me, that’s what makes him perfect. He doesn’t know that every little things he does is getting him closer to perfection. Through hell and back, I am in love with him no matter what. I don’t care how big OR small the argument is, there is no way I am giving up on him. As long as BOTH of us are happy, I know for sure that the both of us can make it through.

I never said that being in a relationship is easy. If you ask me, yes it can be easy but yes it could be harder. But one has to realize that it “takes two to tango” which means, it takes two people to make something work. Although, one has to realize when is the right time to stop and take a break or move on. Because the more you push, the more it’ll hurt.