Love and Other Words

Love and Other Words ✨✨

By: Christina Lauren

• Quick read
• romance
• old friends to lovers

WHOLESOME is the word for this book. I never thought I would like a past and present POV until this one. The way Macy and Elliot’s friendship developed due to their love for books and how they were each other’s ’everything-ship’ ugh… I died.

Let me start by saying: miscommunication is a b*tch.

Losing contact with someone who used to be your everything is probably one of the hardest things in life. Especially if it is over miscommunication. One year turns into eleven years and next thing you know there is too much history to even bring up the reason why you lost communication with that person.

This book dives into how friendship started and how it ended and how it began all over again. Let’s just say; it made me believe in ”if it’s meant to be, it will be”

Favorite word: you

Beach Read

Beach Read ✨✨
By: Emily Henry

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5

• quick read
• romance
• quirky
• slow burn

Ok let me just say that I loveeeed this wayyyy than PWMOV. This book is cute and adorable just over all very good for the soul.

Let me just say, after reading this, it made me believe that regardless of whatever happens, everybody deserves a happy ending.

We need people like January Andrews to put a little more sunshine in our stories, who believes in happy endings no matter what it may be. We need an Augustus Everett to help people understand our stories..

My heart truly melted. Took me 5 hours to read this book and I wish I could read it for the first time all over again ✨✨

The Unhoneymooners

The Unhoneymooners

By: Christina Lauren

• Quick read
• romance
• ”enemies” to lovers
• quirky

4/5

This is such a cute and quirky read. This started off and stayed about the same. The whole time I was anticipating on what was going to happen. The character development on this was so adorable. Relatable in a way because I am always arguing back for the sake of arguing.

This book also touches the subject of ”bad luck” often times, when life doesn’t turn out the way you planned, you think think of it as bad luck or you are an unlucky person. People believe in four leaf clovers or lucky pennies, but in reality; luck is what you make of it.

A lucky penny or a leaf is does not hold magic, but the actions you take when you associate good things happening when you have these things is what matters. We get so caught up with the bad things that happens all the time that when something good happens, we look at it as ”luck”

The Unhoneymooners is definitely a relatable book for a lot of people who dreams big but have to face the obstacle of reality.

All your Perfects

All your Perfects

By: Colleen Hoover

4.75/5

• Quick read
• Romance
• infertility
• marriage
• loyalty
• trust

Colleen Hoover DOES IT AGAIN.

This book speaks volumes. I cannot recommend this book enough. I absolutely loved it. Let me start by saying, wow. The character development on this one is adorable.

There is no such thing as perfect. One cannot simply exist without a flaw. This book focuses not only people that suffers infertility but it also touches the issue of marriage.

Getting married, it is easy. Staying married, not so much. I too, struggle with this. Each day I wake up next to my husband; perfectly imperfect. But the longer I stay in this marriage, the more it becomes a routine.

Routines are good but thinking about how many times you have to wake up, work, eat and sleep it becomes something you HAVE to do instead of something you WANT to do and you know what? That is part of life. That’s what makes us human.

It takes a lot of fight to stay in a marriage and this book… this book focuses on that fight.

The Love Hypothesis

The Love Hypothesis

By: Ali Hazelwood

• Quick read
• romance
• fake dating
• love

3.5/5

This book started off strong for me. Then slow… Maybe the writing style isn’t my type? or maybe this was just a little unrelateable for me.

The story all in all was happened very quick but the middle part was lacking ”chemistry” yes, I said chemistry since there is some science talk on this one; which I liked.

Did I like it? Yes, the story was cute but maybe that was it for me. When I read something, I always connect more with ones I relate the most and this one was just not there for me.

Again, I liked it. Although, the there were a little too much characters in this one. It was a little hard to keep up especially because of the writing style. I did end up reading this for about 4 hours.

Some say that the ”spice” level on this book is definitely out there and in my opinion, yes I agree. But it definitely did not give me THE FEELS.

I am sad that I did not like this as much as I wanted to. Maybe I will give it another shot and re read it again.

Time Period

super long post… jump to end to see conclusion.

Time heals all wounds. Yes… true. Though it never gave you a timeline to when it will heal. It just happens. One day, you just wake up and maybe not even realize that time has healed your broken heart. It can be a week, a month and it can also take years. No one is pressuring you and no one is judging you and if they do – so what? It’s not their life. They can’t tell you how to live your life. Let them get over themselves and let them figure out what they want to do with their own lives.

So, here I am… I am going to share something unexpected. About five months ago, my ex-fiancé and I broke up. Surprisingly, I’ve handled the situation very lightly… It’s the kind of reaction you wouldn’t expect from a person who is truly in love and who is engaged. Not long after the break-up my friend set an online profile for me… Totally NOT me. I am not into those, but I tried it. NOT because I was desperate but because I wanted to forget. I guess it was how I coped with my loss. I met different kinds of people. All sorts. Although, two months ago I met this guy. Let’s name him ‘X’ the number of chances of he and I even going out and start dating was pretty negative. Though, I gave him a chance. Not because I wanted a relationship but because “hey why not,” we set up a weekend for our first date; the Monday that week was really shitty and I was in no mood to come home so I shoot him a text and asked him if he was up for hanging out for a little. Surprisingly, he said yes and mentioned that he also surprisingly got off work early. So, we met up. While I was waiting for him to arrive – I was blasting my music, smoking and I checked myself as I was checking myself I have realized couple things 1.) I look like crap 2.) I was beyond nervous. As I was thinking about those things he gave me a call and he said he’ll be arriving in 10 mins. I wasn’t really excited to meet him because 1st- it’ll not work 2nd – I’m just here because I didn’t wanted to go home 3rd – he’s probably just one of those guys…. As I was processing those thoughts in my head I saw a guy lurking on my windshield it took me about THREE seconds to realize it was ‘X’ that entire three seconds my heart was beating way faster than usual because another realization hit me 1.) damn, he’s hot 2.) I look like crap right now 3.) what am I supposed to do and say? 4.) He looks really hot and I might want him to stick around 5.) What if I end up liking him tonight and he doesn’t like me???? yes all those in just THREE SECONDS – I’m not going to put too much detail with what happened but let’s just say it was a good night. We actually got to know each other. HE WASN’T JUST THAT GUY. We both got home (in our own places)……… So right now – I am in a committed relationship with this guy. I actually really like him. I can brag about him all day – but whose got the time.

ANYWAY, my point is; yes – I think I jumped into this whole thing very quick it’s only been five months, but time healed me sooner than I expected. I have moved on and I am in love with the guy who values me.

You can’t stop a heart from falling in love. It has no timeline. If you love someone and you know it, you can love that person if you want. ‘X’ told me he is falling in love with me about a week of us going out and he was patient with me… I recently just told him I feel the same way and it took me two whole months. Timeline is just there to give one the space and time to get used to the new adjustments life is going to hand that person. If you think you are really ready, then take it. Baby steps if must. No one is rushing you. Take all the time you need. This is your life – you have the final say to it. Maybe you’ll need some opinion and some advice but you get to have the last call in what you want to do.

sorry – I know this post is a little longer than usual, but I’d appreciate it if you take the time to read. I’m back.

The Caved Dilemma

Things happen. It may or may not be the way we want them to but things happen and life goes on. Sometimes, we end up getting hurt. But we learn how to move on. Moving on is something that is hard to do. At least in my opinion. Why? Because moving on makes us realize things we don’t want to realize. But sometimes, it changes us. Sometimes, it changes the person who you thought you were. These changes are good. As much as it sucks. In the long run – it’s always for the better and it’s always going to be good.

Moving on hurts. We can remove the person that hurts us, NOT the memories that you HAD with that person. Maybe sooooooooon, we may forget. But not erase the memories. Things happened and they turn into memories.

Losing/Ending a relationship can change a person. At least to me it does. Just because I’ve seen myself changed so much in such a short period of time. I have moved on, lived my life, went out on dates with no attachments, and even tried breaking someone’s heart (not too proud). I was happy. I ended up liking people more that I should have but controlled myself when it comes to it. Learned how to slow things down, learn how to control my emotions, learned how to not care too much, learn how to value my own happiness before someone else’s… learned SO MUCH.

I am proud that I learned how to stop my emotions when I get close to someone, I am proud that I learned how to slow things down, I am proud that I learned how to control my emotions. But After all these things, it still kind of sucks. Why? Because when I told myself that I am ready to try this whole “relationship” thing again. I am in the process of going bananas just because I am sort of pushing that person away. Don’t get me wrong. I like him… A LOOOOOOOOOOOT! But the wall I built from all the moving on was way too high and I am more than terrified to do this whole thing again. Maybe I am not ready, maybe I am, but how do I really know?

My decisions are way too clouded and I am very confused. I am stuck in a dilemma. I am stuck between “maybe” and a lot of “what if’s”

Here’s the thing, moving on is all good in the end. It makes you realize things. But the only thing I can personally say about moving on is that – don’t build that wall way too high. Just because when you are ready, it is very hard to break that wall. It is hard to finally give yourself to someone again because you will end up overthinking things. I am all about moving on and doing all you. But don’t build that wall too high because you are gonna end up pushing away the person that actually cares about you and you will never realize that because that wall is too high that it made you not trust ANYBODY at all.

I guess my point is that – we all go through heartbreaks. Heartbreak and being hurt is inevitable. One heartbreak can hurt real bad, but this doesn’t give you the right to shut everybody out. Maybe you will need a lot of time to heal the pain, but shutting people off will make it hard for you to ever trust people. It will make it hard for you to see if that person actually cares about you. Take all the time you need to heal. Don’t rush into anything.

 

*I’m back by the way guys.. more posts soon. 🙂

 

 

 

 

A Little too Afraid

Love isn’t as easy as it may seem. But people risk the consequences because the feeling of being happy is worth living that moment. Sometimes, loving the wrong person can change ones perspective when it comes to being in love. There’s ALWAYS that one person that affects you in a different way. That’s why it is not wrong to be afraid. In fact, being afraid is normal. We can’t possibly blame ourselves for being too afraid to fall for someone.

It’s not wrong to fall for the wrong person. One can learn a lot from loving the wrong person. Yes, it hurts to know that it’s possible for someone to fall for the wrong person. It’s terrifying to know if that person you are crazy about is the wrong person to fall for. But one will never know until one gives it a shot. It’s not easy to give the wrong person not only your trust, but your life, time and heart. We’ve got a lot to lose from loving the wrong person, but we also got a lot to gain from it. It may hurt so much and it may take a million years to move on, but once it’s over with- we realize the things we gained from falling for the wrong person. A lot of people don’t want to risk going through the pain because one prefer to play on the safe side. There is so much to lose, so much pain, and so many wasted time. But we are all afraid, we DON’T want to fall for the wrong person, we don’t want to go through all the pain of being left alone, we don’t want to shred all the tears to keep us asleep at night, we don’t want to be haunted with all the memories- but I can assure you that all these are worth it. It sounds very terrible but when you allow yourself to accept everything, you’ll learn how to be strong, you’ll learn how to protect yourself from getting hurt.

I don’t mean shut everyone out your life. All I mean to say is give people the benefit of the doubt to prove themselves their worth to you. Trust me, it’s terrifying to start all over again. But to me, it’s so much better to start over again than to be with the wrong person. It’s so much better to start over with someone else than to hold on to something that doesn’t feel right because the longer you hold onto something that isn’t right, the more time you waste.

The search for love is one of the most difficult process in life. But just like any obstacles, we have to allow ourselves to fail and learn from that experience instead of wasting our time looking back- regretting. Instead of calling it a mistake, learn from it and try to move on, because I am 100% sure that it’s all worth it.

MSG

Summer… everyone craves for summer heat, summer breeze, beach parties, all nighters and of course the most common thing is summer love. Where two random people just get to know each other all summer. Maybe develop something special in that course of time. To think about it, it could be the most amazing feeling ever. Two random people, not caring about the world, not thinking what could go wrong, just two people having fun and having the time of their lives.

But what happens when summer ends? 2 out of 10 people survive summer love. But why? I personally cannot vouch for why. Although, I have so many questions to why DOES IT NOT LAST? What went wrong? What happened? But most of all, how could two people NOT care at all after being so in love and after being so happy and careless together for the entire summer? Come to think about it, I myself would not fall for a summer love… Why? because I’m the kind of person who gets attached so easily, I care too much and I fall too fast. I guess that’s a bad thing, but in contrast for it being bad, I want my relationship to last. I go all in. I don’t like temporary. I don’t like “just fun”.

Things change just like the four seasons. But there are times where we don’t want for things to change. Some times, we would wish for things to stay the same or wish time would freeze. But we all know that we can’t always have the things we want. But unless we try we’d never know.

The Blaming Game

I don’t know if relationships are meant to be complicated. I don’t know if it’s meant to be hard or easy. I don’t think I know much about being in a relationship and in exactly a week from today I am entering my first longest relationship. Everyday I wonder how I managed to keep it this long. How I got my way into committing myself to someone that might not even feel the same way about me anymore.

He never stopped winning me over. He kept trying and trying and trying to prove to me that he actually cared and that he actually loves me. He used to love me, he used to give me everything I ever wanted. He still does but I just don’t know if it’s the same. I know that things aren’t the same and it will never be. I managed to screw up the relationship I value so much. But as day passes through I also realized that I gotta stop blaming myself because if he truly cares he wouldn’t stop the things he used to do. Maybe I’m just paranoid. Maybe I’m not.

Everyday I try not to think about it, everyday I try not to over-think things. But the more I ignore what I’m feeling the more it hurts when it actually hits me. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what else is there for me to hold on to.